I don't want to give the impression, in giving my testimony that it was because of my goodness, unselfishness, prayers, tears, or desire to do right, that I was deserving of salvation. It was just the opposite I came to the realization that there was no goodness in me, which made me deserving of salvation.  I want it to be clearly understood, that if God through Jesus,  had not rescued me I would still be lost. Looking back to that time and place, (the night I was saved) I remember how weak, unworthy and helpless I felt. I got to the point in my life where I realized that I was a victim of my own sinfulness, selfishness and lust. What grieved and scared me the most stemmed from the fact that, in spite of this, I found myself still continuing down this tragic path, I was trapped!!  It was not my might strength, worthiness, goodness, sincerity, or anything of me which, made me worthy of salvation.  It was only by God's grace ALONE, that I got saved that Tuesday night. The apostle Paul reminded the saints, of how they had once followed the lust of their flesh, being completely dominated by Satan (that was me).  Paul reminded the saints of how at one time their pursuit of carnal, fleshly, lust and desire, caused them to be on a collision course with the wrath of God (that was me).  Paul then pointed out God's remedy for these tragic circumstances, Paul said it is not the might, power, or righteousness of man, which allows him to be saved and delivered (that was me).  Paul said it was by God's grace and mercy, that he gives man the faith to believe on Jesus, which in turn leads to salvation (that was me)   3  Among whom also we all had our conversation in times past in the lusts of our flesh, fulfilling the desires of the flesh and of the mind; and were by nature the children of wrath, even as others. 4  But God, who is rich in mercy, for his great love wherewith he loved us, 5  Even when we were dead in sins, hath quickened us together with Christ, (by grace ye are saved;) 6  And hath raised us up together, and made us sit together in heavenly places in Christ Jesus: 7  That in the ages to come he might show the exceeding riches of his grace in his kindness toward us through Christ Jesus. 8  For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God: 9  Not of works, lest any man should boast Ephe 2:3-9 (2).  Paul went on to explain,  God's  plan of salvation cannot be obtained through the flesh, but by the spirit of God alone.  Paul said, it is through God's Holy Ghost, that we are able to obtain this precious gift of salvation (thank God that was me),  Not by works of righteousness which we have done, but according to his mercy he saved us, by the washing of regeneration, and renewing of the Holy Ghost;  Which he shed on us abundantly through Jesus Christ our Saviour;  Titus 3:3-5 (3).

 If you expect to hear a lot of flattering talk about this author, you will be disappointed.  Some of the things I will tell you about myself may cause some of you to totally reject or look down on me, but I accept this as being the price for telling the truth.  As I tell you about me and my life experiences, it will help you better understand why I wrote many of these books.  I have found that one of the rarest things to find in any church is a truly born again (spirit filled) Christian.  In spite of a lot of tongue talking, water baptism, physical prosperity, shouting and dancing, phenomenal preaching and teaching, mega church structures, etc. most people can't ever remember a time when God himself (not man) told them they were saved.  With this fact in mind, I would first like to tell you that I am successful and very prosperous.  The success and prosperity I speak of has nothing to do with money or worldly possessions, but my success and prosperity stems from the fact I have, by God's grace, obtained this rarest of all commodities, REAL SALVATION!!   I thank God for a mother and father who loved me.  I thank God for my mother who showed me what it was to be a real Christian.  I knew from a child up that my mom was saved.  It was something about her that made me want the God I saw in her.  When I was younger, my grandmother told me something that I have found to be true.  She said it is hard to find someone who is truly saved, she was right.  Before I got saved I tried many things to make myself happy, but failed every time.  I was heartily involved in drugs and eventually ended up using needles to shoot heroin.  Drugs almost killed me, but God spared my life.  During this time I was also locked up several times for various drug related crimes.  I experienced first hand what it was to struggle with addictions.  Thus I wrote the book "LOVE, SEX & RELATIONSHIP ADDICTIONS".    Because I was deeply involved with drugs (using and selling) I encountered many who were into homosexuality.  I was able to have a close view of the inner workings of homosexual relationships.  It was my personal observation that the so called long, committed, loving, monogamous relationships the gay community today pushes in public as being their ultimate goal, is not the norm and more of a myth than a reality.  All of the gay people I knew who were supposedly in such a relationship (even the gay couples who seemed to have a good relationship) seemingly had an unspoken understanding that they were still free to cruise (seek other male sexual partners).  This is not something I read, this is something I personally observed.   Thus I wrote the book "HOMOSEXUALITY EXPOSED".  The most important thing I can say about myself is that I am truly saved.  This took place on May 21st, 1974 at about 11:30 pm.  I will never forget that night.  It has been the most important moment in my life.  But the road I took on my way to truly being saved was a very bumpy one.  There were certain people God placed in my life, who set a godly example for me.  But try as I might, I could not live the saved life I saw in my mother, my grandmother, and uncle.  I kept saying I was saved like these three (my mother, Grandma Lula, and Uncle Thomas) but God continually showed me that there was something missing in me.  There are many today who are not sure whether they are truly saved or not.  They believe they are, they hope they are, they have broken bad habits, started reading the Bible, going to church etc., but inwardly there is something missing, and they can't quite figure out what it is.  However, they know it has something to do with the salvation question.  I went through this very same thing. This experience caused me to write the book "OBTAINING REAL SALVATION".    I know from first hand experience the devastating pain a divorce can bring, (to all involved).  About twenty three years ago, I went through the painful trauma of a separation and divorce.  This experience taught me a lot.  I learned a lot about what it is to be saved and divorced.  I encountered a lot of different opinions.  I encountered some that were honestly perplexed about the whole concept of divorce and remarriage.  I encountered some who were very mean spirited and once they found out you were divorced, they, in their holier than thou attitude, viewed you as being lower than a dead dog on the side of the road.  I encountered a lot of hurtful things, but I also encountered a lot of encouraging things.  Thus, I wrote the book "MARRIAGE, DIVORCE AND REMARRIAGE".   After I was divorced, I lived by myself for almost three years.  I learned what it was to be saved and live a single life.  I have been very happily married for twenty three years (thank you honey, I LOVE YOU).  Thus, I wrote the book "MARRIAGE, THINGS TO CONSIDER BEFORE AND AFTER".   As you can see, the portion of my story I have shared is not a flattering one, but I thank God that I am still saved.  I'll tell you more later 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